And the best for last!! I love you my little Ironman Alyssa.
So Batwoman in these pix is my MOM! How awesome is she?!?! I’m such a brag-a-holic when it comes to my family. Batman is my stepdad and the rest are my amazing friends from the gym. Fun times. Miss you all!
Balancing on one side — my life. My goals. My hopes. My worries and desires. On the other side, anchoring me from plummeting into total selfishness — my daughter. Her life. Her goals. Her dreams, desires and worries. Sometimes I sway to one end. Other times, I sway far back. I’m hardly ever balanced and ultimately one of us always pulls the short stick. Life acrobatics. Scary stuff.
I’ve heard the radio pyschologists. Read the advice columns. Seen Dr. Phil in his infamous rants. None of it I ever completely agree with. Its all so individual. I mean really, nothing NOTHING in this life is black and white. We exist in so many gray areas. So many caves. I guess its all about following whatever instictive path is lit at that time. Just take caution to not fall off the rope.
Anyway, here I am sitting in the library (lipgloss and flip flops in stow) doing homework, er, or attempting to do so. See, homework from home is just so unglamorous. As is home grown blogging. Instead I chose to take it to the streets and mooch of the OC public library wireless signal. Besides, my humble abode is so clean right now. Recently vacummed. Footsteps on the rug behinning to annoy me. Ya, I had to get out.
I dont really know what this post is about. Maybe my life, my daughter, my friends and shadows. But whatever! I felt like writing.
PS. The job up in San Jose last Tuesday was a blast. Headed out again this Tuesday for another shoot. Sweet!. PPS. I miss handstands and cartwheels. :o(
PPPS. You can buy a large pizza at Lil’ Ceasars for only $5!! I’m outta here.
Thank God for friends. Long week. Lots of work. Homework. A relationship that I’m learning to work with. Alyssa went to Disneyland with Dad this Thursday and Friday. Friends Laura and Marla thought Laguna Beach would be fun —It was. ;o)
Booked an infomercial in San Jose, CA. Flew out EARLY, got home late, but had sucha blast. I’m a sucker for performance. Besides the crew I worked with, freaking awesome!!! I have adopted brothers and friends and mentours and…all the above.
I’m plateau-ing! nothing has been going on in my life this week. Still working at job that is simply, unfufilling. It’s not what I want to do forever, but finding another job — is so hard right now! I’m trying, but so far, no good.
The only maybe intersting piece of 411 is the update on this Match.com shin dig I’m up to now. I finally agreed to meet my first EVER (and last since) “date” from Match.com for lunch last Sunday. He is a great guy! Cute, fun, successful, witty, etc etc etc — I just feel in no place to seriously date. I honestly dont even know what I want anymore. So, in turn, I’ve cancelled my Match.com membership.