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HELLO! what has happened to this world? No Monica’s rants. No Monica raves. Random.

I pretty much fell off the face of the earth, with nothing to report. I luckily, in these tough economic times, still have A job. Not the job of my dreams, but a good job anyhow. I was fortunate enough this month to land another ”infomercial” thing. HA! hahahaha. I’ll just leave that at THAT. oh Monica. Fun times.

Auditoned, interviewed yesterday for this new web 2.0 start up company. They’re looking for a spokesperson for the website. A homepage hottie…RRRRRIIIGHT, or something like that. ;o) The interview was awesome, but they always ALL are. It’s like I get all psyched cause they go so well, and then, well…I’m not even gonna go putting that out there. Lets just hope for a prosperous new year.

As for the dating scene, lets just say it’s like baking bread, slowly, slowly rising (no pun intended). I fall in love so easily that I need to conciously control it. If I dont, I’m smitten at hello. I’m driving myself crazy. I’m in love one week, I’m suffocating the next. OH! tragedy.

Onto Alyssa~!

Alyssa is so funny. She’s been asking more interesting questions recently that have me stumped at times. Questions about kissing, stealing, popularity. She’s only 6! God help me!

Her birthday party is next weekend. It’s a mixed theme. Invitations — frogs. Pinata — Toy Story. Party favors — Superheros. Why? I buy whats on sale — clearance. A single parents one word motto. Ta ta for now. Until fingers meet keyboard….

So we were given two sweet lil’ pumpkins, colored on them, threw them around and ATTEMPTED to carve them with little more than a butter knife.

…BUT WE LOVE THEM!

Sooooo heeere there are.

And the best for last!! I love you my little Ironman Alyssa.

So Batwoman in these pix is my MOM! How awesome is she?!?! I’m such a brag-a-holic when it comes to my family. Batman is my stepdad and the rest are my amazing friends from the gym. Fun times. Miss you all!

I’ve talked about this before.

Balancing on one side — my life. My goals. My hopes. My worries and desires. On the other side, anchoring me from plummeting into total selfishness — my daughter. Her life. Her goals. Her dreams, desires and worries. Sometimes I sway to one end. Other times, I sway far back. I’m hardly ever balanced and ultimately one of us always pulls the short stick. Life acrobatics. Scary stuff.

I’ve heard the radio pyschologists. Read the advice columns. Seen Dr. Phil in his infamous rants. None of it I ever completely agree with. Its all so individual. I mean really, nothing NOTHING in this life is black and white. We exist in so many gray areas. So many caves. I guess its all about following whatever instictive path is lit at that time. Just take caution to not fall off the rope.

Anyway, here I am sitting in the library (lipgloss and flip flops in stow) doing homework, er, or attempting to do so. See, homework from home is just so unglamorous. As is home grown blogging. Instead I chose to take it to the streets and mooch of the OC public library wireless signal. Besides, my humble abode is so clean right now. Recently vacummed. Footsteps on the rug behinning to annoy me. Ya, I had to get out.

I dont really know what this post is about.  Maybe my life, my daughter, my friends and shadows. But whatever! I felt like writing.

PS. The job up in San Jose last Tuesday was a blast. Headed out again this Tuesday for another shoot. Sweet!. PPS. I miss handstands and cartwheels. :o(

PPPS. You can buy a large pizza at Lil’ Ceasars for only $5!! I’m outta here.

Thank God for friends. Long week. Lots of work. Homework. A relationship that I’m learning to work with. Alyssa went to Disneyland with Dad this Thursday and Friday. Friends Laura and Marla thought Laguna Beach would be fun —It was. ;o)

Random, BUT AWESOME, day today!

Booked an infomercial in San Jose, CA. Flew out EARLY, got home late, but had sucha blast. I’m a sucker for performance. Besides the crew I worked with, freaking awesome!!! I have adopted brothers and friends and mentours and…all the above.

All in all, good day!

So Julie is the one who convinced me to sign up on Match.

She is the one who feeds us dinner, cause sometimes, I have nothing good to eat.

Julie is a great friend. So here she is!!!

PS. I am wearing a tube top in this video, so just ix-nay on the omments-cay. (did I do that right?)

I’m plateau-ing! nothing has been going on in my life this week. Still working at job that is simply, unfufilling. It’s not what I want to do forever, but finding another job — is so hard right now! I’m trying, but so far, no good.

The only maybe intersting piece of 411 is the update on this Match.com shin dig I’m up to now. I finally agreed to meet my first EVER (and last since) “date” from Match.com for lunch last Sunday. He is a great guy! Cute, fun, successful, witty, etc etc etc — I just feel in no place to seriously date. I honestly dont even know what I want anymore. So, in turn, I’ve cancelled my Match.com membership.

OH! The woes.

I dont go out very often. Last time I went out was….my birthday? So lets be safe and say once a month I venture into the nightlife that is OC.

Last night was that night.

Fun times. Had intentions of only dinner and a movie (with a girlfriend) but ended up turning into so much more. Started in Irvine ended in Newport — Goat Hill Tavern. It’s a kick back, trendy hole in the wall (if there is such a thing) littered with woodchips, pool tables and peanut shells. It’s not the place to wear heels, so of course, I did. Enjoyed my night out, but not as much as I enjoy being home.

So some of the players of The Los Angeles Angels of Anaheim (<— could it get any longer?!??!) were kind enough to hang out for a while. Sweet guys. Young, fun, obviously talented and more than willing to take a photo. All I remember is Bobby Wilson — Mike Napoli — and shortstop(?)! haha. As you can tell, I’m not too much of a baseball fan. But a major fan of theirs now! Cool peeps!

 ….BLURRY! saw-wee. ;o(

Hi everyone! I know that most of you have (maybe) stopped visiting. I hope not. My life is seriously super duper ridiculous. I’m in this tug of war with my ex husband — just hoping for an agreement over child support. School is beating up me (and down) and Alyssa…well she’s just amazing. Work is, work and in this economy, I’m just fortunate he hasn’t let me go (yet). I am still looking for more work, but it’s so hard. I dunno what to do!!!

Besides the craziness I have taken some time out for friends recently. Thank God for them! See I go to a church that emphasizes the importance of relationships. I’m trying super duper hard to put the focus of my life back on relationships and not so much on accomplishments, goals, blah blah blah. But working at relationships is soooo haaard! Who knew?!?!?

I just wanted to check in and say hello. Let you know I’m alive and hoping to get back to more regular blogging soon. I’ll be headed to a mid morning brunch this morning (it’s Mom’s bday) and my first experience at a Colombian-ish party this weekend.

….work has dwindlded to 4 hours a day Thursday and Friday (or round there). So…I have sometime off now?
Great.