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Sometimes love will make you do silly things — bad karaoke in Nebraskan bars, overabudance of self cell phone pics, late at night conversations.

And sometimes those silly things include breaking the other’s heart, for whatever reason seems justified at the time. Last night, the person I LOVE decided to end his relationship with me. That’s right. Just end it.

Now I’ve been in relationships before. In fact, I’ve been married before. I thought at the time that I was married, of course, that my husband was the only one in the world for me. Due to “this and that” our marriage crumbled and poof! My life was turned upside down.

Anyway, three years later (three long years of meaningless dating), I managed to flip upright and take the leap into love once more only to be tested once again.

I’m writing this VERY personal blog a day after I launched this site. Rub you the wrong way? I hope not.

I’m merely swallowing pride (gulp, gulp) and letting “him” know that I understand. I’m sorry….And I love him. I am here ALWAYS, like I said I’d be.

See cause love is so peculiar. It isn’t always reciprocated. In fact, it’s often one sided. In this case, I fear I got the short end of the stick. But hmmmmph! I’ve done it before, I guess I’ll do it again.

Lucky is he, to be loved so wholeheartedly. I could only wish for love like that. For now, I suppose, that saga is closed. I hope he comes home…AND IF HE DOES….I WONT hesitate to bring him back.

Cause see, love is just so grey. It’s not black. It’s not white. It lays in the shadows with no clear definition. No right or wrong. No just or unjust. It just is.

and my love for him…just is.