I’m going back to Cali
I’m on my way back to California today.
Flight leaves this afternoon, getting me back home in the evening. So far, I’ve done REALLY well with the infamous “split.” I still have moments where I miss — I dunno, someone. That, I think, proves I’ve come a long way. I really dont sit around and hope he’ll call, or write or show up with balloons and roses with pretty little bows all surrounding a beautiful glass vase packaged with love delievered by hand (hmmmm….I dont? okay!?!?!) or anything anymore. It’s more just a feeling that I would like to have someone to share the stories of my day with.
Lucky for you, I can now type it. ;o)
So here’s the plan. I fly into LA (why LA? cheaper. faster. have a ride from there), grab a bite to eat and then make first trip home.
Feeling? Scared. Our apartment had a ‘bug’ problem and I dont want to have deal with those pests that I KNOW have been brewing since he, I, we left.
Anxious. Wonder how the apartment stands. What did he take. Is it clean? Dirty? All stuffy?
Excited. Finally getting home will be good. I’ll have lots to do — groceries, car wash, laundry — but my life will hopefully soon start to commence as normal.
Anyway, never ever expected to go home to an empty place, but, that’s life. I guess once Aly and I are back in it, it won’t feel as empty.
Gimme a few days and I’m sure I’ll forget he ever lived there. awwww….how sad!
Getting over is a slow process sometimes can be very volatile. One moment you are happy and then the next while driving you get a tear. Just know eventually the sadness goes away. Just keep living life and know that you are not alone.